Have you ever wanted to learn and know how to use something so bad that it almost hurts? That’s the reality that I’m dealing with at the moment.

Trying to get smarter, learning how to make things, watching my mind upgrade… All of that requires time and the ability to finely balance it.

I’ll be first to admit that I’m not the best at that, but also say that it’s something that I do want to do with all my heart, soul, and spirit.

I had a bit of an internal fracas today as I was about to hire someone to create my website for me – good old Imran, the man who designed this very webpage that you’re reading at the moment.

There was a bit of an ethical dilemma on my part, because as I was trying to decide on the hiring decision, Si Eian had come in to recommend me a high school friend of his who wanted to do the job for a little more cheaply than I had been planning to work with Imran for ($400 as opposed to $500).

It led me to think a little bit there – would that $100 help me out a bit and would it save me? Would it not be prudent to save a little bit of money?

Well, I decided to go with Imran.

Partly, it’s a question of ethics – I did already tell Imran that I wanted to go with his services – but partly, it was also a question of quality and making the thing happen within a reasonable timeframe because the other freelancer was only able to deliver in two weeks; I’m not one to have a project delayed, so I went with the more expensive option.

Don’t get me wrong, I appreciate that this guy offered his services and came out there to make me the offer – it just felt wrong to give up on someone that I’d promised that I was going to do something.

Over the years, I think I’ve changed a little bit – one of the things that has changed, from what I can see, is the way that I value small things; common decency, trustworthiness… All little things that circumscribe the way that I interact with people and make choices about who to stay with.

Nowadays, as I walk through this world, I do ask myself a bit – do I want to be a decent person, or do I simply want to gain everything that I can in this world?

Once upon a time, the latter would have been the default answer, no question – but now, the former seems a little better.

Can’t wait for the developments of the next couple days 🙂

This week’s started out pretty interestingly – I’ve decided to set out on a new business amid the constant push inside me to start yet another ChatGPT course, mainly because I think it’s important to start creating a legacy.

With that in mind, there is a small project that I’ll be creating for a subject that I’m pretty passionate about:

I started collaborating with a couple of teachers to make this happen, which has been pretty nice and interesting – I don’t know if this is going to make money and honestly it could end up losing me a pretty chunk of change, but I think it’s something valuable to do that I would do even if there wasn’t money involved in it; think of it as a chance to go through the process of skills transfer or something else of that nature right there – an opportunity to create something that’s actually valuable for the community and that people will think of with a sense of joy.

I think frequently about the idea of transgenerational change and about the things that we’re passing down, and as time goes by, I increasingly see the importance of somehow making preparations to make it happen.

When I think about it, I’m not too clear about what I’ve managed to pass down so far as a heritage to the next generation, but I know for sure that I’d like to leave a deeper mark in the lives of people in this short time that we have on Earth.

This is my small attempt to do so – look forward to it!