As you know, I recently lost quite a lot of weight, maintaining all of my muscle ever since the beginning of the year – people consider it a great success and I do as well, but the question arises:

Why did I have to lose weight again in the first place?

It was because I fell off.

Succeeding at something is always temporary, it is fleeting; the person who becomes fit, intelligent, strong, or rich occupies the position only for a brief while, whether “brief” in the sense of the 70+ year median lifespan that notates the lease on a human existence, or for the months or years that attend complacency after the euphorias of success.

From trying to lose weight and succeeding and losing it again, I’ve come to realize that life is about our little equilibria – the things that we maintain and keep up at little mental cost because they are habit; the things we repeatedly do so much to the point that it’s unthinkable that we wouldn’t do them; the workout, the music practice, the sales process, the managing of people, the filming, the socializing – everything is about those little equilibria and refining them.

I was able to cut down from 79kg in November 2025 to 69 in March because I understood that fact, and I managed to live it out – but does that mean that I’ve managed to reach an equilibrium?

Could I repeat the set of activities that have led to my being able to achieve this result without thinking about it, without worrying, without even considering the question of whether I need X, Y, or Z with no deep application of effort because it all comes naturally?

I think I need to grow along the way to make it happen, but I think we’re getting there 🙂

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